Wednesday, November 25, 2009
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
The Run
I stick my head under my covers
and I say, "No way. My Mom is gone. I
want to sleep. I REALLY don't want
to run."
Today, when they begged, I put them on.
I ran. I ran. I ran.
I felt so much better, as
my head cleared, my body strained.
I out ran cancer and death.
I thought of the verse,
"Run without ceasing the race set before us."
Today, I started the race that the Lord
has put before me.
Sunday, November 22, 2009
Saturday, November 21, 2009
A Saturday With Kids
really late on Friday nights. We would sleep
in on Saturday mornings. Oh how
kids change all of that.
with my Dad at one of our favorite diners.
After breakfast,
the kids could participate in Build And Grow.
After Build and Grow, it was off to a new
indoor mini-golf place.
After Build and Grow, it was off to a newindoor mini-golf place.
black light.
mini golfing.
They loved it.
There were golf balls flying everywhere.
After we were done golfing,
Jon added up the adult scores (the kids were so busy
scooting the balls that there was no way to keep track
of their score) and .....drum roll please.....
I BEAT JON AND DAD AT MINI GOLF!!!!
Jon seemed a bit surprised.
I say, "PGA, here I come."
Saturdays with kids are lots of fun.
Did I mention we did all of these things
before noon today!
Friday, November 20, 2009
If You Were Here
Pastor Sam drove all the way up here
to visit Dad. He brought the most delicious
Red Velvet Cake. You would have
loved it.
outside of our kitchen window.
I even used the one that you bought me for
my birthday a long time ago. We're having
so much fun watching the
birds (and squirrels) eating
the food.
I would tell you how Kim sent me the sweetest
card, and in it she put two pictures of her kids.
The first thing I wanted to do was show you their pictures.
They've gotten so big, but then I remembered you
were gone.
If you were here, I'd share with you
how Chris and Elaine sent us a package
from the popcorn factory.
The note attached made me cry.
It was so kind.
I would tell you how I bought tea called
Comfort and Joy, because that's
what I need right now.
I'm not even sure if I'll like it, but
I just need comfort and joy.
I would tell you all about the Adirondack Cheese shop.
You would have loved it, not just because of
the cheese, but because of all the
cute stuff the store had.
Dad bought lots of little candles
he thought you might enjoy.
I would tell you all about our trip to the Soda
Fountain. Even though you weren't there
with us, you were.
You were there in the dirty look that Doodles gave
Papa. You were there in the
silly paper folding the Big K. did.
We all looked at the booth that we sat in the last
time you were there with us, after the scenic railroad.
Doodles asked me to take a picture of mustard,
because it made her think of you.
Big K. ate lots of mustard because
you loved mustard.
But mostly, you were with us today
in our smiles, as we tried to
have fun without crying.
As we tried to make new memories
that don't exclude you, but include
you. As we all shared how much we miss you.
Mom, if you were here today, I would
share all of these things with you.
Mostly, I would tell you how much I miss you.
I would tell you that I wish you were back,
not sick, but how you were before the cancer.
I would tell you once again how very much I love
you.
my birthday a long time ago. We're having
so much fun watching the
birds (and squirrels) eating
the food.
card, and in it she put two pictures of her kids.
The first thing I wanted to do was show you their pictures.
They've gotten so big, but then I remembered you
were gone.
how Chris and Elaine sent us a package
from the popcorn factory.
The note attached made me cry.
It was so kind.
Comfort and Joy, because that's
what I need right now.
I'm not even sure if I'll like it, but
I just need comfort and joy.
You would have loved it, not just because of
the cheese, but because of all the
cute stuff the store had.
Dad bought lots of little candles
he thought you might enjoy.
Fountain. Even though you weren't there
with us, you were.
Papa. You were there in the
silly paper folding the Big K. did.
time you were there with us, after the scenic railroad.
Doodles asked me to take a picture of mustard,
because it made her think of you.
Big K. ate lots of mustard because
you loved mustard.
in our smiles, as we tried to
have fun without crying.
As we tried to make new memories
that don't exclude you, but include
you. As we all shared how much we miss you.
Mom, if you were here today, I would
share all of these things with you.
Mostly, I would tell you how much I miss you.
I would tell you that I wish you were back,
not sick, but how you were before the cancer.
I would tell you once again how very much I love
you.
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
Our Fun Field Trip
a local fire house.
The firemen gave us a tour of their station,
particular fire house.
The whole time I thought how much Mom would have
The whole time I thought how much Mom would have
loved this trip. She loved to learn.
with the kids looking at all of the
stuff and listening to
the firemen.
how much they loved our trip.
K. loved the "whole thing", not
just one part.
Doodles loved sitting inside the fire truck.
On the way home, they both let me know that they are
planning on becoming volunteer firemen when they
turn 18. I wish Mom were here
to share this with. Boy do I miss her.
Monday, November 16, 2009
One Day At a Time
and sets. Each day takes me farther away from
my Mom.
Today, I saw the most beautiful bush while we were taking a walk.
Today, I saw the most beautiful bush while we were taking a walk.
She would have. So, I took a picture, because
I loved it too. I shared it with the kids,
and they loved it too.
we bought window crayons. We had planned to decorate
the window that was near Mom. That way she could look out
and see the pictures that the kids drew for her.
The writing is still up. I can't
bring myself to wash away
Doodles writing "I love Oma".
I still look at it.
buried herself in leaves.
I loved the way she looked in
her leaf nest.
I know that if Mom could see
this, she would be smiling at Doodles, sitting
in her leaf nest.
She would be laughing as
two seconds after this picture,
the Big K. took a running jump into the sweet little leaf
nest, and Doodles started yelling,
"MOMMY!!! K. is ruining my leaves".
I'm glad that life goes on.
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